OkCupid and Paid Sites

The more I use OkCupid, the more I convince myself I should stick with it.  Look at the screenshot.  OkCupid did the math on why paid sites do NOT have good odds (this was before they were bought by match.com).

Not Deleted

I contacted Smart Guy because I was fuming about something he said to me.  It was so judgemental.  He actually responded and was nice (did not expect this).  Smart Guy's number is not getting deleted this week.

By the way, I think he's been cheated on or scorched in some other way.

Closure

I would like some closure.  Limbo is not a good place, would like to know if I should delete someone's number out of my phone.  Would also like it if someone didn't assume I seriously lacked morals and ethics (which is what I think is going on right now).  So I did something that should get me an answer/closure...I feel pretty good now.

Not Ready

Don't know if I am ready for a relationship.  Actually, pretty sure I am not (either because I haven't met the right guy or it's not the right time).  Really thought I was.  I get freaked out easily.  This isn't directed towards anyone in particular, or is it?  Who knows, maybe he feels the same way.  The momentum (and my giddiness) are at super low levels right now. 

I also feel "off."  Smart Guy is great in person, but I am kinda uncomfortable right now (had some unpleasant conversations with him).  I know, totally singing a different tune today (compared to a couple of weeks ago).  I think he is judgemental and might also be close-minded (he really didn't seem that way in person).  I don't walk on eggshells, not part of my nature!  A friend had a great point, it's a good thing I'm learning all this stuff now vs later.

Couldn't care less if he does or doesn't contact me (yes, I do flip flop on this depending on the hour of the day).